I think it all started bubbling over when I called my Baba in CA to wish her a Happy Thanksgiving. She will be turning 90 at the end of January & it was one of the saddest conversations that I have ever had with her. Let's just say her health is not so great. She is nearly deaf & has only been able to see out of one eye, but she is quickly loosing her sight, which they have now realized is from a tumor on her cornea, and surgery may not be an option because of her age. So needless to say, it was not a fun conversation. She is so precious; she is one of the smartest & most brave women I know, still sharp as a tack, but so very frightened, which nearly shattered my heart. Below are a couple of my favorite pictures of her from a trip we took back out to CA a couple of years ago.
And now we get to today....down to the nitty-gritty, and my breaking point. Moving. Yup we are moving. Thankfully not out of KY, or even Lexington for that matter, but we are moving. We have decided to downsize; imagine that in this day & age. I thought I was really ok with it until we started moving things over to our new home, and really started taking the BIG stuff, and then today my amazing mother-in-law posted a picture from her annual chocolate party, and I cried like a baby. For real, like a baby. Something about that picture made me so sad. You see, the chocolate party was something that was around long before I was in the picture 20+ years ago. It was something she did wither her mom, a.k.a. Granny, and with all the girls in the family & then when I married Charley, I was invited, and as we all had daughters, they came too. Along the way we sadly lost loved ones and then 9 years ago, we moved away. Bette's party this year was with just cousin Lisa & cousin Valerie & for the first time, their husbands.
It showed that we had entered a new stage in our lives, and it just made me very sad and miss them very much. For the first time in 9 years, I really felt "homesick" . Homesick for my Baba, my family and for my friends back in CA.